Well, Ive got the girls buzzn around me like butterflies again. Strange, but that is what they do. After they stare you to death and play with there hair, they come over by you and start fluttering. Its interesting to watch.
well, Im not that great a God. Im just a normal guy!
OK..
Dissociative disorder can make it impossible to interact with people. Its the interaction process that triggers the PTSD problems. So what do I do. Well, Im at that point of beginning...
First, One has to have a history built up of creating attraction and getting used to it. Im used to it.
Next, one has to study how to approach people and talk to them. And I have started this. ( Im talking about the opposite sex) It can be scary.
The study of approach and scripts and dialogs are what is needed at this point. For people like myself its important to study pickup material and let it foster inside.. role it around a bit and come up with a plan. The idea is to be prepared so that I sound as smooth as a church mouse going for a piece of christmas pie...
I have to have this set down tight. I must have everything prepared before hand. I have the material for this. This is one of the most important parts of the Dissociative persons earth school class.
The idea of dating and women is to end isolation. However, It was never really about dating. The idea is to learn how to interact with the world again. Many people study dating techniques to learn how approach people in a positive attractive way vs a negative unattractive way.
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My goal is to learn the scripts and go practice on people I do not want to date. I need this routine down. really figured out from paper to the real world. Im at that point that Ive work on everything else and gotten to the point of approach.
I have already approached people successfully. Ive chatted a bit with small talk. Now Im ready to learn the rest..
The fear is bringing new people into my old life. Im scared of what they will think or find. Im afraid I will not be enough and I will be laughed out of existence. I have so many fears. Im going for it. Nothing will convince me to be one of those that stays in there apartment the rest of life and wait for the UPS chick to show up every 6 months. Im way past the test of being alone anymore.
ITs the interaction communication stuff that is in the way: When I smoothly participate in my own life again, friendships will pick up. Its all about the scripts and practicing at this point.