I talk to myself in my apartment! You think you talk to yourself when your alone; try it with full dissociative disorder! Or where im at now; about 35% dissociative disorder; ive gotten better over the years. I carry on full conversations with my own thoughts and those people in my head or Ill be talking to the universe at full volume; yelling and screaming! and talking as if someone is in the room with me! Its a bit strange; it can go on for a long time! When I had full dissociative disorder; it went on for days and days! or years!
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I was at a 12 step meeting tonight! I noticed I was fairly here! meaning, my speaking was present and in reality; but something happens; I go dissociative; up into my mind; and I loose track of time completely! I talk n talk! However, I stop finally!
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When I was fully mentally ill; I would talk with no stopping; no conscious reality of what time it was; I was completely dissociative and could go on for hours if someone did not stop me! I had no sense of reality! nothing!
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Things are much better; Im still a dissociative!