My biggest problem with women; cant show my feelings; I have to practice! I have to practice showing my slip ups; my mistakes; things that make me laugh when Im around women; laughing at myself because I make mistakes around women! This is the scariest hardest thing for me; its letting go!
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Sometimes when talking to myself and imagining my feelings; I find myself laughing because I slipped up in my imagination around women; then suddenly,I dissociate or pull back! I dont want to pull back! I want to show my mess ups around women!
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I blame women when I dont show my feelings around them! I blame them because Im scared; I should just tell them Im scared and cant show my feelings! Im angry and scared! I have to show them my feelings! I get so scared Im around someone thats going to betray me; I dont take chances with anyone!