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Death

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Wed Apr 06, 2016 10:24 am

Im waking up to fast! I have nothing! and I'm starting to come back! Now, I know why I went to sleep in the first place!

My answers would be given to me if I was with God! so, why stay!

In a state of dissociation I was not allowed to see the world anymore! Now as I come back! I simply want to go away and never come back! I have nothing here! Im wanted by no one!

I want to go home to God! I want nothing else! I do not understand why I was born! for what purpose! I am not allowed to have my life! and if I take my life, no one would flick a piece of grass! it would mean nothing to the change in the frequency of the earth! its as if I was never born! I was erased before I got here !

I am not afraid to die! I don't care! I never have!

I am trying to live; or find anything; anything of value for this society! I can find nothing! Im trying to hang on; but I have nothing to hang on to!

Im a decent man! Im trying to stay alive! but I will not stay here if I have no life! Im not even allowed to make art or have relationships!

I have to listen to others make music from the radio or the youtube vid; I have more talent then they! and I have no way of privacy! so, I cannot make my art form! any art form!

I cannot have relationships! I do not qualify! As I am! Im not noticed, understood or accepted!

Its been said; understand others! I say no! instead! You understand me and be dam grateful for it!

I simply want to go home to God! that is all I ever wanted! their is no life here on this planet and never has been! and I am fooling myself to think otherwise!

I have tried to work with the Universe to build a life! I am getting nothing! So, possibly, Its time to leave and go to heaven! ive tried! The Universe is not listening! God is not listening! I tried! Possibly, this is a sign I need to go to God!

Ive tried! but nothing on this planet is understanding or listening! and they don't care anyway!

I want to die! that is the problem! Iv tried everything I know how not to die! and no one cares! nothing cares about anything human! so, I would rather go to heaven and leave this place! its in human! it is not made for decent men!

I will not be remembered by anyone

I cannot continue to live a forced animal!

Im a stranger in my own land! and not wanted!

Ive tried! I really have; but Im of interest to no one!

Ive tried to work with God! and I get no answer! So, I must go back to him!

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
Evolution didn't stop my death, God did .....Now what?
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