Im in groups of people to save my life. I have no friends. I do not know why!
I suppose real friends come from real places! Im not in a real place. Im in a place made to help me get better. I am getting better...
nothing in this place is honest, and the people are not honest! and I get hurt on all the time! and others turn against me! they think Im some dumb ass...
if you give the wrong people fuel. They will use it against you!
I have to ride the storm alone. And I hate this. However, I have friends from the other meetings; some friends....
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I dumped the girl I was dating. I told her; either get in or get out! I finally I told her off. Strange stuff. Not sure what she was doing or why. She did not want me as a boyfriend. And this is a red flag. A strange red flag. Not sure what she was doing. Possibly bored waiting for something better to come along. .Or, playing me off the guy she really liked that wouldn't notice her anymore!
She exclusively dated me! but would not show any public honesty of such a thing. She kept it to the park at night on specific days. She did not want anyone to know wee where dating.
Does not matter now! live n learn. very strange situation. I do have a friend. and he called and we talked and I feel better.
I have to trust God.
Now I grieve a little . I did like this girl from the heart! I refused to go deeper incase the above happens; and it happened. And I will never know why she was going out with me! it meant nothing to her! strange! just having fun at others expense possibly. Im not sure! I might have been a man in waiting as she wanted the real man she liked to notice. I will never know.
Now its time to keep practicing my dating stuff and learn to talk to women at a more crafted level. Its all about skill!