Im dealing with the pain of loss!
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I remember the good times! and this triggers the thoughts and a life I wanted to continue with.
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The good times of the past, trigger what would happen next; the catastrophe!
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The goal is to remember the feelings and bring them to the present and start over with them! This is not easy! IT is about the feelings!
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Remember a good feeling and hold on to it! thats the goal!
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Right now; Im remembering a good feeling; but Im also remember what comes after this event in life; the sorrow and sorrow that will follow! its hard to get my nervous system to go back in time and want to look at this again; it caused me much grief; this sorrowful experience; and to go back is to cause massive pain; way beyond anything I can deal with!
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The goal is to bring the good feelings and memories to the present an began to extend onto them and let go of what happened in-between! and I think it can maybe be done with Gods help! it is overwhelming for me! but changes are happening!
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Learning to trust again!