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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Sun Aug 23, 2015 4:20 pm ] |
| Blog Subject: | Dealing with a realistic past |
I had no real past! The women figure in this family system was a psychopath! I was first aware of this at age 3 1/2! That was my biggest concern! Im mad that this individual had the right to continually be exposed to children! Because I am aware of what this individual is; all memories of this person, need to be reworked to see her for what she truly is! Why would I hang on to this women as a mother figure! This is not a mother; this is a sadistic sociopath and nothing more! I must get to a point that I see this monster; this monstrosity for what it is! I must get to a point that I let go of all things from this family system and the past! I had wonderful intentions; and possibly, those intentions can come true in the future or the present; but not with this old family system or its surroundings! It must all be done away with! Unfortunately I was a child who was taken advantage of! If the occupants are psychopaths/sociopath! You're not going to have a future with them! They will kill everything; they will steal everything! You will get nothing! Don't expect to get anything! Go outside this system and get help! And then depart from them! Its horrible, all of this; it must be done! I will get help, and get out, and start again!; it's a sinking raft! And I was sinking on it! Im mad; but I seem to have a problem; Im trying to make sociopaths into real people! They are not real people, they are sociopaths! All of them! Sociopaths cannot have relationships with other people! They are incapable of such human things! If the people I was surrounded by in my childhood were sociopaths; I will not have a relationship with them! And they are not interested in me or my talents or my future! They do not care who I am! Do not care if they ever see me again!! They are worthless scumbags! Nothing more! They are worthless scumbags, nothing more! I get mad that my brother stole from me! Stole me blind! I am quit wrong! This is a sociopath! He was never a brother! Thats where Im making a mistake! IT is very hard to allow myself to see this person for the stranger that he is! All of my interactions with him are fake or false; meaning; He was never who I thought he was! He was a sociopath; I make him out to be a human-being with a personality and personal position in my life! There was no such an animal! This person is a sociopath; they are a complete strangers and always were! I have never had relatives or brothers or mother n father, or sisters; anyone! ITs all a lie! And I must start the process to see this animals for what they were, and get out of there! From the very beginning, I could see what they were really like; but I did not understand the consequences! They were the equivalent of murder;s, rapists and thieves! I did not know this; or what it meant! I must go back into my past and pull back all the goodness I was to give out; save it; bringing it to the present and use it on worthy people! However, I must purge myself from the past! See it for what it really was! |
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