Ive got problems; I know the answer; dating women is the answer to the dating problem! Whats the issue; I will loose the past all at once if I date! The child in me will finally have the realization of moving on! Im also afraid of the women hurting me emotionally! setting me up; hurting me; hurting damaged areas that can hardly function!
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I bigger problem looms; I must get over the dating phobia! I can feel it; it hurts; the idea of dating someone! it hurts; I want to cry! I see ptsd! I see the last place I might have had a family when i was a kid; and its gone and not coming back. I was transferred out of my house to other homes; then dumped again into nothing! an nothing ever came back!
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So; to move forward; am I going to be dumped again! Im afraid of the stark reality of being in the cold! Meaning, this is what happened to my life! Ill have to look at it!
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Im a mental basket case who needs his mother! However, In my case; I really need a mother! I never ever had one! Its not abnormal for me to want to collapse into the arms of a women like she's my mom an let her take care of me! I know a women right now that would do that! I just might do it!
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My inner being has other plans for me! Still!
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Im at the point of going to counseling; more counseling to work on this problem; Im close!