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Crucification

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Wed Aug 26, 2015 5:13 pm

I was a nice kid exposed to worthless scum bags who did not value me as a human being!

I was very young and destroyed by sociopaths in every direction! No matter what direction I went I was exposed and overran and controlled by sociopaths!

I was abused and bullied and treated miserably! I was treated like a second class citizen and beat down to nothing! Used and persecuted! And blamed!

I was a nice kid with no support in any direction! I was being destroyed!

Later I would find that the sociopaths had no idea who I really was; they did not care! They weren't thinking about me; they were thinking about destroying me!

They wanted to destroy me; they couldn't care less who I am! They were mindless monsters! Predators and weaklings I had no business being exposed to!

I was abandon and did not know what else to do but to find my mother again and try to live with her! I did not understand; this was her idea to abandon and never come back!

I never understood until it was 2 late! Also, the psychopath; it's not personal! It is, it's not! They are simply trying to get rid of me! They don't want me ever coming back! Ever!

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I have to work through the cruel and unusual punishments I experienced as a child hacked to death! Hacked in this case means many things! The over all picture of being overwhelmed and destroyed on many fronts!

One area of confusion and horror! I had a best friend that was not a friend! He and his family were my enemies but they never told me! They were 2 faced! I did not know this about him! Had no idea!

I really had no idea! I thought there was stability through him and his family within my life! Not so; they never wanted me or wanted me near them! They thought they were better then me!

I have allot of work to do on self! and healing, and getting my sanity back

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
Evolution didn't stop my death, God did .....Now what?
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