And so it goes......
I have to practice social skills.
Im not comfortable around women!
I have to be comfortable. ..
I have to learn to get into more conversations.
I was destroyed when young;
I am waking up again exactly where I was as a teenager.
To meeting girlfriends, you have to go out and meet girlfriends. Keep studying...
lots of shallow people in the world!
ITs so hard being myself!
The approach is the hardest...
People try to get the upper hand from the beginning!
Be myself around people and be accepted where Im at!
Who wants to be a failure or looser! I just want to be myself; be a winner
I have to learn how to approach and talk to women!
Im so alone, its crazy! I don't get it!
I have opportunities to talk to people,
Im practicing interaction and that is all Im doing;
What scares me; You need me!
All I had in the past was death! and I did not want death! I was sad. But I did want death! Death is all I wanted! The only way I could survive is with God! I would have no other purpose. And God is keeping me alive. Death, acceptance and God!
You have to specifically get close to them!
My life was destroyed, everything I loved was gone or taken from me!
Im learning how to let go!
I have a desire to correct the world!
Im attempting to come back to life in spite of the world and its sick people; and Im doing it!
It is a battle everyday! people will not help, they wont give an inch! They maneuver me and take advantage of me!
Im around the wrong people for personal relationships; However, these are people in my groups. Not everyone is bad for a relationship!
I have to practice! I have no choice. Im hurt and angry and sorrowful about it. Im worth more then this! I feel like I have to fight for the scraps off the table.
Thank God for blogs! I have no real people to talk to! and I have to get these feelings out so I can grow.