Im at that point where Im dealing with disrespectful people; again!. The world has not changed. They fight me like a WW1 fights against its soldiers.. They will give no ground.. Evil never does. Its good vs Evil... Life is this simple.. regardless of the mental conditions I have, the world is still good and evil.. I love the good so much and appreciate it; I hate the evil that much more for its cowards, and Im realizing how hard it is to over throw the evil. The evil and those who practice it care about nothing, especially my boundaries and right of passage.. I have to be aware of this or I get slaughtered. Never give what is valuable to pigs and swine lest they trample me under there feet, turn and tear me to pieces.... Never give what is holy to the dogs..
If you dig a pit, you fall in it; if you break through a wall, a snake bites you. I broke through a wall tonight and I got bit. They were waiting for me. I have to remember, Im a nice person. The evil in the world is waiting for people like me to make a mistake. Most of the evil that I see surrounds the concepts of Envy and strife. Others think they are Gods and can get away with what ever criminal act they fantasies in there minds. When Im surrounded with the type of people I just described in the last few sentences, I find myself bewildered and lost. I find myself surrounded by the enemy. Eyes are on me from every direction. I haven't been willing to look for alternatives. I need to.. Im changing. I need new surroundings. Others don't play fare in some of the places I rome. I have to learn the truth of a thing. I cant change arrogant people, they are to stupid. What am I thinking? Im dissociative, that is part of the problem, Im trying to brake through a wall with snakes on the other side. I will have to recede and look for another wall..