Im a second away from having a girlfriend... We've been hanging together for the last several weeks...
Im not sure what it means for the long term. I like her! she does act up a bit at times and pushed me to chase her!
I joined the main table and sat by 2 women! I could feel the fear and uneasiness! I felt small and fragile! I felt weak. Lots of PTSD problems. I felt much like a women that is forced to sit at a table next to men after she had been raped. Not good! You are in fright! and your nervous system is scared to be around people; and Im a man, so its hard to express and admit.. I admit it!
I was rejected by everyone and everything when young! so, its about feeling rejected by others; expecting it.
When you tell people you have it going on, it means you accept yourself; others accept you!
The only thing I can practice is getting close to others and preying while Im going through the problems and anxiety!
Women;
Now that Im half dating again; who do I date! there are so many! and I am attracting really beautiful women! its very confusing..
The girl Im about to date, is OK! She's more then OK. But you get this " I can get better stuff" I think she will make a good friend! But she is not a friend with benefits type thing!
I can't see a real real long term relationship! My mind is on physical beauty.. having someone look like a Picasso painting of color, or a matisse!
Im not sure; Im working through a book on the right girl, kind a thing!
Im at that point of interaction.
The best thing I can learn from my past mistakes is; get better, become confident