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Star trek
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Can I love a women
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Never being loved
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High School
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Things continue to change
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the strange world of getting better did
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This is not going to be easy.
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Identity 101; so; it officinally begins; the rebuilding
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Something positive is happening
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The Beatles
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A place exists
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Things are changing again
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Things are heating up; Im now backing down
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I have CPTSD
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Real changes are occurring
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Coming back into the present
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Im extremely frustrated
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Fining myself or facing myself
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Im beginning to understand
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Visualizing
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Starting from the beginning
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The trap house part 2
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The trap house; I only knew about; In the end I win
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Massive Mega paradigm shift
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First post recovery conversation
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Dating and Art
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movement
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childhood abandonment
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Being single
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Preview: PTSD; High School
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Fear
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Ive found some answers
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D.I.D; let me introduce myself
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PTSD; dealing with triggers.
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Making me into a loser; its all about the critical voice
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critical voice
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Toxic shame
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Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Sat Aug 29, 2015 6:19 pm

So, life is brutal; as long as I continue to think someone owes me something!

Im tired of people, or being around them! they are 2 faced and not my friends!

Im an honorable man! Im a decent respectable man! You can hear it in the words I write or how I speak! However, people such as myself are not liked; generally!

I am not popular! no one is breaking down walls to get to me! very few people have shown any interest in me as a person! and those that have, have now turned on me, at least in attitude!

My goal is to "get-over-people"!

I was at the Gym today! Im trying to " not look" at the women in the gym! and why? their just playing men! its all a game to them!

You can stare at them or not; you wont leave with anyone either way!

Im a decent man; I mean nothing to women! I have no value to them! and that concerns me! My worth has no value to women! what does that mean!

Women are shallow! and theirs no reason for this! Its just pretentious privilege and those looking for it!

I dont have any privilege; you have to move on!

Im not giving up!

Ill go to where single people are! not a problem!

Im attempting to learn to let go of people that are not needed! that means I get over being needy!

I will have to think about the type of women I want! most dont appreciate anything about me! and never have my whole life! and this is a huge problem! or is it!

Im not sure what the right type of people look like or act like! Ill find out!

I seriously never thought this would happen to me; that I was used as a child, and all of this horrible life would happen to me!

Im slowly learning how to deal with it! Im not sure of the type of people I am to associate with!

So many people with no depth! no knowledge! no understanding !


I dont need love from a women; I first need to be understood! then we'll talk! nothing less then this! she understands or she has to go! Ive had ######6 enough this non-sense!

I cannot stand people with no decrement for right or wrong! I wont stand for it! I simply dont want it around me!

I know what I want and what I dont want! I dont feel like compromising anymore!

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IVe found a strange thing;

Ive found the idea of sleeping with allot of women appealing! But I cant see actually sleeping with different women at the same time and they all know about it!

Im not sure what Im looking for!

Id like to get over panic, fear, terror! horror! isolation!

Im barely starting to wake up., that another world exists outside my shell; my head!

I must keep working with God and not give up!

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
Evolution didn't stop my death, God did .....Now what?
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