Adolescence horror/terror starting to show up.
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Im wanting to process all of this. Getting it started so I dont dissociate from it; Its very powerful in a good sense, whats happening. Im re living or seeing these things again; but Im here now; its like watching a movie screen of a bad event; but I made it through; Im here now; and I want all of my feelings and experiences of the past to be like this; where Im safe now; However, this is not completely happening; I dissociate quit often; and am hoping to process deeper stuff from that unbelievable horrible time period; like being in a horror movie where Im the subject and the victim of the movie; unbelievable.