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- July 2019
This is not going to be easy.
   Sun Jul 21, 2019 10:47 am
Identity 101; so; it officinally begins; the rebuilding
   Sun Jul 21, 2019 2:25 am
Something positive is happening
   Sat Jul 20, 2019 11:54 pm
The Beatles
   Sat Jul 20, 2019 6:04 am
A place exists
   Fri Jul 19, 2019 11:21 pm
Things are changing again
   Fri Jul 19, 2019 3:41 pm
Things are heating up; Im now backing down
   Fri Jul 19, 2019 9:06 am
I have CPTSD
   Wed Jul 17, 2019 4:47 pm
Real changes are occurring
   Tue Jul 16, 2019 10:46 am
Coming back into the present
   Tue Jul 16, 2019 2:32 am
Im extremely frustrated
   Mon Jul 15, 2019 11:14 pm
Fining myself or facing myself
   Mon Jul 15, 2019 8:39 pm
Im beginning to understand
   Sun Jul 14, 2019 3:30 pm
Visualizing
   Fri Jul 12, 2019 8:28 pm
Starting from the beginning
   Fri Jul 12, 2019 3:35 pm
The trap house part 2
   Fri Jul 12, 2019 3:13 pm
The trap house; I only knew about; In the end I win
   Fri Jul 12, 2019 1:15 am
Massive Mega paradigm shift
   Thu Jul 11, 2019 3:01 pm
First post recovery conversation
   Wed Jul 10, 2019 9:55 pm
Dating and Art
   Wed Jul 10, 2019 4:44 pm
movement
   Tue Jul 09, 2019 5:56 pm
childhood abandonment
   Mon Jul 08, 2019 3:23 pm
Being single
   Mon Jul 08, 2019 3:53 am
Preview: PTSD; High School
   Sat Jul 06, 2019 10:31 pm
Fear
   Sat Jul 06, 2019 4:34 pm
Ive found some answers
   Sat Jul 06, 2019 12:41 pm
D.I.D; let me introduce myself
   Sat Jul 06, 2019 12:23 pm
PTSD; dealing with triggers.
   Fri Jul 05, 2019 5:32 am
Making me into a loser; its all about the critical voice
   Thu Jul 04, 2019 6:08 pm
Molding sound like clay; having reasons; Things are changing
   Wed Jul 03, 2019 4:25 pm
critical voice
   Wed Jul 03, 2019 6:38 am
Toxic shame
   Tue Jul 02, 2019 11:05 pm
Ive found some answers
   Tue Jul 02, 2019 7:59 am

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Childhood

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Fri Oct 02, 2015 4:16 pm

Its real simple; how do relive a childhood when its gone and the people you loved and were important to your childhood are no longer around! You are lonely!

How do you rebuild your childhood!

Its very hard to go through the process of rebuilding your childhood! Its possible; but its hard for me!

I don't have my mother or father to turn to or my brothers or friends!

I want so badly to go back now! Go back and live my life from the beginning! But the players are gone! And most are sociopaths! And a few psychopaths! And other pathological performers! And they dropped me when they thought I was going nowhere in life! These were never my friends, but I never knew it!

And its hard to talk about! All of it! But Ive been unlocked from dissociative disorder! It happened in my therapists office! Its been happening for a while now! And theirs no way to describe it!

I have all of my past buried! all of it from childhood! they tried to erase me! actually, Like Adult Hitler; he did not care what really happened to the jews, he just wanted to get rid of them , so he murdered them! he did not care how they felt before they died! he was simply getting rid of them!

I was gotten rid of, much the same way Hitler got rid of the Jews!

I was gotten rid of by people that did not want me! they did not want me because they were sociopaths! that is the reason! it was not personal!

However, Im left with a whole strange buried history that Im attempting to uncover for the first time!

And I had allot of hidden and developing talents as well; they are buried!

How do I bring them back to life! I think I must let go and let God! stay out of it; take action and let God do the rest!

Women; take action, let God do the rest!

The right women; or soulmate! let it go! and keep visualizing it! but let the outcome go! and thats hard!

allot of things are hard! very hard!

I think its possible to get back my childhood memories! This will be horrible! I have to go back into my house! a house I loved! go back into it within my head! and relive everything! and take what I like and leave the rest!

Its a horrible deplorable nightmare that someone would have taken my childhood home from me! but they were psychopaths!

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
Evolution didn't stop my death, God did .....Now what?
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