I was asked about this girl today; we were talking about how hot she is and how all these guys like her. And how everyone is afraid to associate with her because she affects all the guys. Well; I was offended because she gave me attention the first time I saw her for months; she liked me for real. It wasn't until later other guys showed up and she started giving them attention or showing them she was wanted attention. I was horribly offended that she was no longer giving me attention because I thought I was her friend; someone special; I was not; so I pulled back. And I stayed pulled back.
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later she was still trying to get my attention but she was still giving other guys attention and didnt seem to care; so I continued to to ignore her...
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Then the universe opened up an opportunity. I wanted to go to the second phase dealing with women emotionally; im not sure who or what would show up; I ended up walking up to people and talking and then asked allot of people outside to talk to them; they didnt really understand what I was doing; but they went along with it. Finally I asked these girls out side on the steps; This one girl im writing about; I asked her out. I didnt want to ask her out but it was a great opportunity; so; I asked her outside and talked to her a few times; and some other girls. none of them were ever alone so it was awkward. I realized she shut me down at the end of one of my conversations; so I wrote her off; smiled thanked her and never really talked to her again. strangely enough I ended up on a camping trip; I was on the boat; she and her friends were on the boat; so it was more of her sitting by me and give the other guys attention; I shut down and did not want to be around any of them ever again.
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later I continued to ignore her... and I still ignore her... As ive seen her she has attempted to get more attention from other guys and start to give this one guy special attention. remember this was girl that was giving me attention once. Three strikes your out; I outed her the first few months. She is now dating this one guy. But as I sailed; three strikes your out; so I started writing goodbye letters about her and mock funerals where I say goodbye to her..... over n over n over... never to see her again.
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I dont have to be around creeps. I can ignore them; but I dont have to be friends with them or know them regardless; it sickens me. Some times these people dont understand; when you affend someone that relationship is over. They dont come back; they stay away until they have new relationships and your forgotten about.... im like that.
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So; saw this girl today and thought; I will never talk to her again. I continue to put up a wall until she no longer exists.... Not my monkeys not my circus. They just never get it. Does this bother this girl; I have no idea that she even notices or cares but one thing I know; she will slowly be leaving my mind the way she came in; she offended me from the start and it will be the last time. Ill move on and trust the universe and move on. And never talk to her ever again... I will have all new friends and not worry about it.