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Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Sun Feb 07, 2016 12:44 am

Im learning how; Paradigm shift! Laws of Attraction; there are many at least 11! I don't know! I have to keep studying them!

I had a wonderful future ahead of me; then it was destroyed! I was like a bug that had gasoline turned on it and lit up! And burned and smashed into a window of a moving car! Nothing left!~ welcome the world of being forced to be brought up or exposed or controlled by a psychopath! Its all brain washing; one has to get to recovery to find this out! and one can get help and be defragged from it; Like guys in combat; they came back to the base; and they are debriefed and brought back to psychological normal levels before they are let home! Im not suggesting they are in perfect condition!

It's a slow process moving from that world; the world of a psychopath! It's a shift and pull! Shift and pull! Its like moving different types of clay at the same time of different colors! Its like mud clay from a lava flow!

Independence of thought; future choices of excitement! What do I imagine I want to be when I grow up! Or whenever; others live in reality, I create my own reality! And I know how! Im learning! Its magic!

The point is; Im not completely stuck under the control of past sociopaths stuck in my head as bully markers of remembering!

For as long as I can remember, my mind was back then; in the place of sicko's controlling me and ruining me!

All you can do, and what you must do, and what I can do is leave and head to the nut house for evaluation and never go back!

I had to learn the hard way! Their was no one on my side from the original life I came from! No one! I was hated in every direction! Most of this was do to the psychopaths! The imbalances they created!

One has to get away from them for ever! Never look back! That requires allot of work; allot of outside work and recovery work and therapy; and it can take a mercilessly long time! Its horrible; it truly is; for this to have happened! $#%^ happens!

The idea is; you start growing from where you were hurt! You start growing again and addressing the lack of maturity of your life! You slowly ask God for help and 12 step groups; or what ever groups work for ay!

I must get honest about it! The immaturity and fears! And slowly tell them and talk about it! Let stuff out to process! Move forward! Slowly learning whats needed!

All resentments must go! Resentments are expectations! One must grow up from thinking psychopaths owe you something! They are not human; they are acting human; its fake! They will not give you your needs! They don't care! Its all fake! Move on! If you go back around the psychopath; you will get bit and torn to pieces! Every time, until you learn to stop associating with them! They are not your parents, or brothers or sisters or friends or girl! If they sociopath/psychopath! Its over! No more relationship! They cannot have a relationship with a human; instead, they exploit humans and lie to them about their intent; that is how they survive! They have no conscious; so, they don't care about you or what happens to you; they don't care if your 5 or 50! Your just an animal to them!

If you can make it through the recovery process and become independent again; and this is possible with massive resentment work, a strong relationship with God, a good set of 12 step groups to go through the recovery process with; you're not alone; You can with forgiveness, slowly let go of them (the evil); and allowing the present honesty and future imagination of goals to take its place; life is then possible!~ possible to have relationships again and activities of interest!


Activities of interest;

These are goals; houses, cars, vacations, interests, hobbies! Women, soul-mates! Money! Lots n lots of money! Money money money money money; hello money; money is falling into my grateful hands from every direction! Thats one of my affirmations! I am receiving money constantly!

Im at that point of beginning! I'm healing up and getting some independence! Im slowly turning to God now and not the psychopaths or their offspring! Im letting them be and moving on and trusting God and turning to God instead!

God, God, God! God takes the place of man! Where I was once angry and resentful! I take it to God! This after I forgive thousands and 10's of thousands of times! Over n over n over for ever and ever and ever; continually for the remainder of my life! Its is called safe guarding my mental health!

I have a hate sheath under my memories and desires and interests! Its hurt and pain! And it resides in the roots of my interests and memories and imaginative creations and directions; because of this, my reality is warped! For this reasons; I forgive everyone all day long; everyone I meet I forgive; because I know the anger is spread from me to them like a decease! It gets triggered as soon as I see anything the breaths or moves; for this reason, I forgive them!

The goal is to get people out of the picture! Stop hating or anything else! Give them a break and myself! And leave them be and move on with the directions of imagination I have created in my mind! With Gods help, those visions Im creating will start growing cloths and walk out of my head into my future reality! And thus Im back creating my reality and having a future!

So;

The system looks like this!

1. past; resentment work, and forgiveness! 12 step groups! God!
2. Present; brutally honest; meaning, Im honest about my self with others and how Im doing with them! This is not about me saying abusive things to others; that is simply stupid and will create isolation! God!
3. Future; I use successful thinking programs; Napoleon Hill; how to Think and grow rich; and all others using this system in form with the Laws of attraction! God!

Again; resentment work; the 4th step in 12 step groups! And #1; forgiveness! " I forgive you and pray you have everything I could ever want in my life" about 10 million times for ever n ever until it's a way of life!

4. This is a new principle! God is now my parents and brother and sister and friends! I turn to him and blame him for what happens! I go to him If I got a bitch about my future!

Most of this is about moving from a paradigm shift to a bigger better set of habits and expanded view of ones abilities within the world!

Im learning; going or heading into resistance and brick walls is not the answer! go the other way! What natural way am I suppose to go to find success! What turns me on and makes me happy!

Im on my trail; and down my trail is everything I have ever dreamed; its on my trial, I must keep going! Its waiting; Ive already created it in my imagination! now I must take action to show the Universe Im serious! action can be started with prayer!

what I think I become!

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
Evolution didn't stop my death, God did .....Now what?
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