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Star trek
   Tue Jul 23, 2019 6:04 am
Writing new stories and meeting new people
   Mon Jul 22, 2019 9:25 pm
Can I love a women
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Never being loved
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High School
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Things continue to change
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the strange world of getting better did
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This is not going to be easy.
   Sun Jul 21, 2019 10:47 am
Identity 101; so; it officinally begins; the rebuilding
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Something positive is happening
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The Beatles
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A place exists
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Things are changing again
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Things are heating up; Im now backing down
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I have CPTSD
   Wed Jul 17, 2019 4:47 pm
Real changes are occurring
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Coming back into the present
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Im extremely frustrated
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Fining myself or facing myself
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Im beginning to understand
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Visualizing
   Fri Jul 12, 2019 8:28 pm
Starting from the beginning
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The trap house part 2
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The trap house; I only knew about; In the end I win
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Massive Mega paradigm shift
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First post recovery conversation
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Dating and Art
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movement
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childhood abandonment
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Being single
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Preview: PTSD; High School
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Fear
   Sat Jul 06, 2019 4:34 pm
Ive found some answers
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D.I.D; let me introduce myself
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PTSD; dealing with triggers.
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Making me into a loser; its all about the critical voice
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Molding sound like clay; having reasons; Things are changing
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critical voice
   Wed Jul 03, 2019 6:38 am
Toxic shame
   Tue Jul 02, 2019 11:05 pm
Ive found some answers
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change and its price!

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Thu Apr 06, 2017 4:26 am

Im starting to move forward; a bit upward in my recovery life! Many people did not understand me; now, no one does! very few! I dont explain myself to people! On Facebook; I write allot of " fear of women blogs" hundreds of them; I go into every detail! Its helping me a great deal! is it helping me describe what Im afraid of; no! What Im afraid of is re entering society! Im looking to tighten the gap between the emotional level of hurt I was exposed to when young, and the real world now! By writing, Im filling in the gap; I'm learning to loose fear of what Im afraid of! Most dont understand! However, in 6 months, Ill be further then they will ever dream of! I do what I have to and do not explain myself!

Fear of women; You you've to take chances! confidence! However, theirs another area of interest; who! and where do they hang out! meaning! the women Im interested in; I have this feeling they are smarter and intellectual introverts; And Im starting to have to accept this fact! regular women are not doing it for me! something is missing! Conversation is everything for me! conversation and how a women handles it; this determines if I want to spend more time with her or not!

Judging; I find many women judge! and Im not into being judged incorrectly! One cannot be popular all the time! The point is I probably dont have friends; to many of them in meetings; I do! some! Many are not my friends; Im their for deeper psych reasons then just addictions! and I dont care how anyone feels about it! I say what I have to say, day after day!

Isolation; Im slowly working my way out of it; Im working with God and the LOA and slowly working my way towards people again! meeting new people as the Universe shifts in my direction!

A Gap resides in my personal life between when I was a child and now! and allot of area needs to be filled in; Im trying to fill it in with Gods help! Others do not know what Im doing; they think Im crazy!
Im trying to learn not to care what others think! What others think seems to be more important to me then what I think about myself!

The goal is to slow down on meetings and get a life! Ive spent 20s of my life round these meetings! Im now starting to get better!

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
Evolution didn't stop my death, God did .....Now what?
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