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OMNICELL
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- August 2019
Finding my voice
   Tue Aug 20, 2019 4:47 pm
Three important conversations with women
   Tue Aug 20, 2019 1:39 am
I letting socioapths attack me again; abuse me; feel demoralized
   Mon Aug 19, 2019 11:23 am
Mellowing; and idea of exploring the entrances to the gap...
   Mon Aug 19, 2019 1:20 am
A house and a backyard and 4 walls and a hobby
   Sun Aug 18, 2019 1:09 am
moving into know mans land (positive); and then through
   Fri Aug 16, 2019 9:41 pm
The Gap
   Wed Aug 14, 2019 8:37 pm
Teenage years
   Wed Aug 14, 2019 2:25 am
finding and painting rocks
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 5:14 pm
Expressing my feelings
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 3:26 pm
I know Ive never met any women to date ever....
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 11:02 am
Being alone all of my life with out women or a relationship
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 10:16 am
The wright brothers created plaines; Im creating my new life
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 8:41 am
A new era is starting; But Ive got problems
   Mon Aug 12, 2019 12:19 pm
Signs of the end is here; and a new era starting
   Sun Aug 11, 2019 6:13 pm
Trapped between 2 worlds
   Sun Aug 11, 2019 3:23 pm
Things are getting better; Im still fat; I got a problem
   Fri Aug 09, 2019 11:38 pm
Women have defeated me? and I feel deated? #1
   Fri Aug 09, 2019 6:45 am
Plans from the universe; they have cometh
   Wed Aug 07, 2019 4:39 pm
breaking things and coming together
   Wed Aug 07, 2019 11:44 am
What am I thinking about
   Wed Aug 07, 2019 4:16 am
That breaking point
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 8:45 pm
Needing my mothers permission
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 5:47 pm
And another day
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 5:03 pm
Im so right in the middle of the promises
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 4:35 pm
whats missing with music; live playing
   Mon Aug 05, 2019 11:22 pm
Women and John Denver
   Sun Aug 04, 2019 11:33 pm
Bulling
   Sun Aug 04, 2019 1:33 am
art images coming back and other things; taking action
   Sat Aug 03, 2019 8:35 pm
I wasn't suppose to break the my first girls heart....
   Sat Aug 03, 2019 12:47 pm
Take my mother out of the picture; what do I get.
   Fri Aug 02, 2019 11:47 pm
Where am at right now.
   Thu Aug 01, 2019 11:30 am

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change and its price!

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Thu Apr 06, 2017 4:26 am

Im starting to move forward; a bit upward in my recovery life! Many people did not understand me; now, no one does! very few! I dont explain myself to people! On Facebook; I write allot of " fear of women blogs" hundreds of them; I go into every detail! Its helping me a great deal! is it helping me describe what Im afraid of; no! What Im afraid of is re entering society! Im looking to tighten the gap between the emotional level of hurt I was exposed to when young, and the real world now! By writing, Im filling in the gap; I'm learning to loose fear of what Im afraid of! Most dont understand! However, in 6 months, Ill be further then they will ever dream of! I do what I have to and do not explain myself!

Fear of women; You you've to take chances! confidence! However, theirs another area of interest; who! and where do they hang out! meaning! the women Im interested in; I have this feeling they are smarter and intellectual introverts; And Im starting to have to accept this fact! regular women are not doing it for me! something is missing! Conversation is everything for me! conversation and how a women handles it; this determines if I want to spend more time with her or not!

Judging; I find many women judge! and Im not into being judged incorrectly! One cannot be popular all the time! The point is I probably dont have friends; to many of them in meetings; I do! some! Many are not my friends; Im their for deeper psych reasons then just addictions! and I dont care how anyone feels about it! I say what I have to say, day after day!

Isolation; Im slowly working my way out of it; Im working with God and the LOA and slowly working my way towards people again! meeting new people as the Universe shifts in my direction!

A Gap resides in my personal life between when I was a child and now! and allot of area needs to be filled in; Im trying to fill it in with Gods help! Others do not know what Im doing; they think Im crazy!
Im trying to learn not to care what others think! What others think seems to be more important to me then what I think about myself!

The goal is to slow down on meetings and get a life! Ive spent 20s of my life round these meetings! Im now starting to get better!

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
Evolution didn't stop my death, God did .....Now what?
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