Much surrounds bulling from my past; and examples of it in the present!
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When young; I was thrown away and had no one; and no protection! I was lied to by everyone and everything! I had no friends; I had fake friends that were little better then opportunists that thought hey were superior to me the whole time I knew them! I never new; I was 2 young and innocent! in fact; I had whole families I trusted that thought they were superior to me and I never knew; I never thought that way when young! I was 2 innocent to know! Unfortunately, I had to find out at some point! tragedy; no friends! never were my friends!
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I needed my friends; I needed anything and everything I could get; for I had no one that loved me or was taking care of me; not really! I was a throw away! I did not really understand this until about 7 years old! by the time I was 9 years old; it was happening! probably always had been happening; didnt know it! My mind was the mind of a small innocent child!
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So; no one cared about my future! nothing! I never survived!
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So; Now, Im working on rebuilding my life! Actually, Im in the process of rebuilding the processes; learning to rebuild the trust that is required to trust again; trust the processes again! Very hard difficult stuff! horrible to open up to again! lots of PTSD surrounds all of this!