They want me to buy a house and get a job....
Why cant I find friends... Its terrifying to look through people to find the right ones..
Im the dog and they are the Horse Buggy, Carriage, Sleigh and Stagecoach. I pull them in the snow. They drink soda..
My decision or there decision.. they don't know me... They never wanted to know me.. I am an object..
Its enough to be on SSI... I would have killed my self anyway, I think about dying all the time.. I would do it. I would. I don't care... I don't give a ###$ either way...
Relationships:
Im afraid she will see all the porn I watch.
SSI:
Why do they think everyone is faking it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why would a well educated man like myself thro away his whole life for 650 bucks a month and have no girl friends...
Its against the law to be on SSI for a nut check and be able to communicate
This small town... On one hand I am safe.. On the other I am condemned...
My condition is a condition that repeats itself. It is like Diabetes... It never goes away..
I have learned a few things.. Don't tell anyone its a mind thing, or problem.. tell them you have blood transfusion problems or something. Or your rich uncle left you some money to live on each month.. Don't mention Nutsville... You will be judged for the rest of your eternity ######6 life..
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IF you get better, if you try to get better:
You will be judged..
When you tell the truth people think you are weak...
So many girls think they have upper status above me... They are so ######6 brain dead.
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PTST: One cannot react to the outside world through movement.
Pressure:
Some people do not want to listen to my diagnosis.. they want to create it for me and spill it back to me... they are not interested in my opinion. They have there own.... alone..
I am treated like a second class citizen... Its all fascinating.. It a bit scary...
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Sites like Psych Forum are great, because I don't have to explain. I can be.....