breakdowns... patterns, shut downs, meltdown
between the Hospital and reality,
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To many people in control...
Intimidation:
HAtred... :
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How do you plan a future... What does it look like to go after a life...
IVe had such pain and let down.
Morbid recurrences
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They never ask me anything...
Would be nice to have people to talk to...
An immature people
The study of a real life..
How to have a life that is an adventure.... What does it look like- how is it done. Making money, how is it done for a creative intelligent person.
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I do not have success in the work world... I will kill if someone ###$ with me.... I cannot allow other people in absolute authority to get near me... I will butcher them....
Many people cannot kill another human being... I will. I can...... Im not like the other 75%....... When some one ###$ with me the sociopath comes out and wants to have his way....
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Other approaches to the work world... That is what I will be studying.
The anxiety disorder destroys the work world from the start.... I cannot control it... I will attempt to look into it... See what I can do..
Im on the computer making beats... Hip hop..
slip away
3 -4 days...
alert : I cannot protect
Personality switching
Anxiety/agoraphobia/PTSD/depression/suicide attacks...
My mind is not strong... IT is not mine!
Its funny, People tell me to get a job....
Technically I could make a 1000 YouTube videos and make money from the advertisers...