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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Mon Jul 08, 2019 3:53 am ] |
| Blog Subject: | Being single |
Maybe Im suppose to be single until I die; Maybe Im not suppose to be with someone and fall in love or have someone; Im suppose to be alone the rest of my life. . Im 56 years old and have had no one. I do attract women I guess. but Im not around any women I want to date. nothing. . Im around no middle class people; no middle class women. . My interest was an Asian soulmate. And; nothing! . My interest was an Asian soulmate that liked telescopes and astronomy and star parties. Nothing. . Nothing.... . Emptiness. . . I don't get why I deserve this. what did I do to the universe to piss the universe off this much to deserve this. Why is this so hard. Where are the people for me to date. . I dont have any money; that eliminated 75% of the women I would be interested in; or 90% . I guess I could put myself out their; but where. And Ive never had a girlfriend. Nothing that I actually wanted to date. Someone I actually liked or thought of as an equal. Or loved being around or thought was so adorable I wanted to stay with them for the rest of my life. All that happened is; Im getting old; thats all thats happening. . I just dont get it. . I have no thoughts; no movement but desolation when I think about women; I see nothing. I see no worth. Nothing. . I see walls up in every direction; I just wanted to meet a nice person that I thought was adorable. cant the universe bring me someone. No? cant? Im I really suppose to spend my life alone. Really! . . . . Using the laws of attraction; I never got the guitar or implanted teeth, or camper can or truck or car or road trip or vacation or Asian soulmate. Or anything else. Never got a place to look at the moon at night. My telescope just sits in the apartment. I hate taking it outside unless its my own backyard. Im not interested. I prayed about this. Nothing. No house. . I was playing drums; now; nothing. That didnt work out.. I dont get it. . I dont get any of this. At times I just want to die. . Most of my experiences on earth; I just want to die. I've always wanted to die and leave this planet; I've needed these goals to give me substance. but the universe is not helping me. Nothing is happening. Nothing. . Am I suppose to be single. really. Is that all the universe is worth. Nothing! . The universe cant being me a first girlfriend. No! That I might experience being with someone I actually feel safe with.... at least once in my life.... . Where do I meet these people. I have no idea. Nothing. Im terrified of not being enough of anything in any direction. I have no money; so I have no power. No car.. . Maybe Im suppose to be single and die. Maybe; then why put out all this work. For what. . What am I suppose to do. I have no real friends; nothing. why! Im an intelligent man. Why is all this happening to me. why? . My talents dont make any sense; nothing does. Im just getting older; thats all thats happening. . As for women; I have no clue; the universe is not bringing me anything; Im not attracting anyone. . Ill keep at it for kicks; I dont know what to do. . . IVe had some Asian women walk by ; they look at me like their superior to me; Im nothing. OK; what good did that do. . Im not sure why the universe is not helping me. Im so tired of investing in the universe; its getting horribly old. I dont understand. \ . . Maybe Im suppose to be single; what a horrible life this is. |
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| Author: | Snaga [ Mon Jul 08, 2019 4:46 am ] |
Maybe you are; maybe you aren't, Omnicell. We can never say what the future holds; but as long as we're above ground, there's always a glimmer of hope. And you've been the most hopeful, persevering person that I know. I think it's okay to feel down every so often- but I have faith in you that you'll bounce back. There is, I think, literally, someone for everyone. She just hasn't appeared yet. |
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