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- January 2021
Several things.
   Mon Jan 25, 2021 10:36 pm
Brothers in arms
   Mon Jan 25, 2021 7:32 pm
The social; or new social begins
   Fri Jan 22, 2021 11:41 pm
I cant be friends with women
   Fri Jan 22, 2021 9:51 am
friendships... Is that what women wanted?
   Fri Jan 22, 2021 1:30 am
Problems with women I guess? My problems ?
   Thu Jan 21, 2021 10:44 pm
Stuff about sex; and not allowing sex
   Thu Jan 21, 2021 8:48 pm
Connecting the 2 halves
   Thu Jan 21, 2021 6:00 am
Now Im starting to get it
   Thu Jan 21, 2021 3:35 am
I could not compete because of my avoidant behavior
   Tue Jan 19, 2021 4:48 am
keep working at it
   Mon Jan 18, 2021 4:17 am
Wake up! Trying to become present
   Sun Jan 17, 2021 7:48 am
Planning life as an AVPD
   Sat Jan 16, 2021 7:24 am
Another break through
   Fri Jan 15, 2021 4:51 am
bulling and apologizing
   Thu Jan 14, 2021 9:17 pm
My work; to get up close in my imagination
   Thu Jan 14, 2021 7:17 am
Get right with God; God is saying
   Thu Jan 14, 2021 1:02 am
The message about the sociopath
   Sat Jan 09, 2021 2:24 pm
Moving forward
   Sat Jan 09, 2021 4:53 am
Beginning to move forward
   Fri Jan 08, 2021 5:11 pm
Im alone again; things are changing.
   Thu Jan 07, 2021 10:17 am

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Being friends with women; making out with women

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Mon Aug 20, 2018 5:05 pm

Being friends with women; making out with women; this means moving on from the past; that baby; is what it means! Im working with the universe for this; this is my top manifestation; what does this mean; it means I move on from the past into the arms of new women for friendships; relationships and making out!
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Dissociative disorder; destroying my friendship life and love make out life!
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Dissociative disorder blanks me out anytime I want to get close to someone; it flashes pictures of the psychopaths when I was young; knocking me out! I completely dislocate from reality and Im turned into a sleep walker; the equivalent! Im not actually sleeping; I mean, my nervous system turns away from whats in front of me and dissociates into the other direction! I can never get close to anyone; my dissociative disorder wont let me! What if I just want to make out with women; no go!
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Ive found that no women gets in; non of them! I can ask for 1000 phone numbers; and I never call them or go out with anyone or deal with them! I tell myself; Im just a player and Ill end up using the girl! or; I really like her and Im afraid of getting into a long term relationship with her! At the end of the day; nothing! No girl is close enough to be my friend! and Im not making out with anyone! and yet; theirs plenty of women to go out with! So; this is a big big big big big problem; becoming my number one concern; I want it fixed; Im sick of this! its horrible!
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I have watch porn because of this! because of my dissociative disorder; I dont have a choice because the PTSD is triggered so badly that I cant get close to anyone; My nervous system will not listen to the reality in front of me; it dissociates to the past and I relive things; or my nervous system will not allow me to relive things; it completely shuts everything down!
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Im really freaked and bugged that I dont have women as friends; I mean; friends! the ability to have a women as a friend! Nothing! Im working with the universe to change this! its horrible because no one can ever be my soulmate and no relationships just protection; and I dont want protection anymore; but it wont go away and it wont go down; its like a solid rock I cant blast through! we will see!
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So; Im pushing on the universe to open things up! its time I get a new life and some new friends in my life; some new women in my life; and not being controlled by the old thoughts or memories of the past! its time for change!

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
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