At closer area reach; closer physical proximity you must attract not promote. To promote is to be a minister preaching to others or teaching or advising...
Attracting is using push pull flirt techniques; being cocky and funny!
Being cocky and funny takes allot of work and you must practice! practice until you get the feel correctly and like the results. You must feel good enough about yourself to want others to feel good.
If you are excited by laughter, you want to make others laugh! that is the point of cocky and funny!
When your up close your working the table; one might say! Your a one man stand up act 2 feet in front of someone! Lights, camera, action, your on! Your on stage!
Being on stage or the lime light is my biggest disability and my greatest challenge to recovery from! I was crippled from being on the stage and being expressive. I hope with enough work it returns...
The best place to start is with women; making them laugh! This is one of the greatest general signs of emotional health!
The ability to walk up to someone, pull them into a conversation, turn them around, use them as an audience and perform to that audience at a 2 foot proximity is very confidence building!
Social confidence is a very important thing for survival and success.
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My mind is ###$ up. I must rely on God; I mean, really rely on God and not other people! People let you down! Im already hurt enough as it is!
Im tired of people letting me down! its disgusting and horrible!
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This girl Im seeing is breaking my heart; she's causing me pain! IT keeps driving me away! Im not sure what to do about it!
Something is evil! Im not sure what else to call it! I need to call it what it is and come out of denial about it. This relationship is not what it is suppose to be! Something is wrong!
I would like to get stronger and find someone else! I feel like Im being used! I don't trust this person! something is wrong! I would rather trust God! I don't know what this person wants..
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I wish I was stronger! Maybe with enough practice and time!
I have to rely on God and deal with God and talk to God and work with God and trust God.
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I need to prey about women, and about dating and ask God for his guidance and help. I really don't want to! this is the door to the closet that is closed; so much pain, hatred, hurt, and anger!
Im hoping I will get strong enough to tell this girl to get lost! Get out of my life! she is breaking my heart; I don't understand.. She will not sleep with me; its not about the sex! I just want to be close with someone and not alone! I just wanted a girlfriend. I do not understand what the big ######6 deal is!
This girl wants to be safe, wants to make sure Im not jack the ripper!; fine! I understand that, but at some point this is not worth it to me! Im getting tired, and Im loosing interest! I just want her to go away and never come back! And then, I want to meet nice people!
I just wanted a girlfriend that would sleep with me, eat ice cream with me, go to the park! be my Girlfriend.. What the ###$ is happening in the world! the whole dumb ######6 place seems like its been flipped on its head!
I need to get to the point that there is nothing here!
Im being played!
This person is driving me away! why?
Im not putting my foot down yet; that is the problem! Im to lonely and needy and want the possibility of love and affection.
She is becoming nothing but noise!
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Dissociative disorder is hard and getting harder to deal with as I wake up! Im starting to remember again! slowly!
My heart is being broken slowly!