I got most of it figured out. Im amazed that this is happening.
I came from a death family! I did not know. Now I know! Ive worked the recovery process around this disaster and Im coming through in flying colors... Now that I know what and who these people were, I can move on! leave them and their stupid dumb ass small town behind... And the best friends and stuff that I thought I had; what a horrible sick demonic joke this was. They were arrogant demonic people; nothing more. I hope I never see those people again or remember them ever again! How great this is for me to change things around. Trust God and move on. Its such a great thing. You have no regrets because of the truth, you start to see things clearly. What a horrible ride this has been. To see things the way they were, to have no other choice but to see the true path! To watch this horrible nightmare unfold; and you never knew. You never knew who you were living with or what they had done to you. You never knew the neighborhood you lived in always saw you of no account; you were a stranger and won't be missed by anyone. What a horrible nightmare A grave town.
All of this gives this feeling of freedom. I never knew what I was living with! my memories at the time were good. They were shadowed by an unforeseen world I was not aware of. Now I am aware of it! I was around cobra snakes that bite and kill and implant venom that turns one into a zombie.
I still have much work to do! I am healing up and my symptoms are down!
Im not letting anyone into my Christmas this year. Im staying at home alone. The idea is not who I spend it with; its who Im not spending it with; thats whats counts.
It will be my independent Christmas. Its not perfect. Next time I will take the phone of the hook, and keep it off till after Christmas.
Im still anxious. I assume I will get over it. and Ive been watching Youtube documentaries for fun; I haven't done this in a long time; it is nice.