The Asian soulmate situation has me confused!
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My general situation continues to get better the safer I feel; the safer I am from the past!
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Ive worked for a long time for an Asian soulmate! In order for this to happen; I have to respond in the right amount of time; certainly, Ive had my opportunities with a few Asian women; but they are gone!
Im not sure what to think!
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ITs seems the only women I know are at 12 step meetings and I know no others; and the universe does not seem to be listening to me; Ill continue working on it! it gets discouraging and Im wondering why the universe allows me to get discouraged! The universe either prepares me and brings me Asian soulmates or it doesn't! If I need more confidence; the universe has to supply ways and means for such things!
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I feel like Im cut off or dissociated from the voice of the universe concerning soulmate!
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Im trying to get better so I dont have to go to so many 12 step meetings! Im trying to make the transition back into normal life; but I dont know anyone! Im trying to work with the universe for help!
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Im getting better; but no girlfriends! I dont know what to think about this! maybe I have to be more settled! I dont know; Ive been trying for years; the problem is; I dont know anyone worth going out with!
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God will have to work with me!
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I was playing disk golf! I lost the disk! I used the laws of attraction to find it; and it works time and time again! I think about the disk and how much I want it; the one I lost; then I imagine it being in my hand! I start heading toward the wooded area I lost it; and I watch and listen to my mind; In some cases Im led to it! In others; it takes a while for my body to turn around and keep looking!
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I have these silly friends; they really dont know me; they know me as a sick person; nothing else! But Im better now and no longer need them! And would like to get on with my life; and social stuff is picking up around me; but no girlfriends I want to date and no Asian soulmates; not right now that I know of!
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So; the key is to have a good positive attitude about things and keep going; However, allot of abandonment issues come up and I get freaked out that the universe is throwing me away and not listening to me; that Im insegnififant.