Ive been practicing!
I face a beautiful women
Takers are vampireing me
Bank Teller;
Watch those eyes, they wonder. Im bringing on my own problems.
12 step group:
First encounter,
A women,. say hello. ( 3 second rule).. Don't think!
Into the meeting:
brought scripts with me.
CPTSD and Alters causing great anxiety. I survive and learn
Stop looking at people thinking I know what they are thinking. If I want a relationship, I will go up to them and talk to them.
Im noticing that Ive lost control of my eyes. They wonder. Getting that control back is important.
I share at the meeting. Im not sure if what Im saying is for attention and popularity.
Neediness and victimhood. Im learning to stay away from this.
A gentleman has spoken. I decided to walk up to him and talk to him. I survived.
I need to stop and think about how I will approach a person before I approach them. Dialectic behavior of awareness comes to mind.
1 year ago I could not let anyone near me at this level of personal awkwardness ..
The key is to keep working at it. Even if the locals have no idea Im working at or working through them.
Practice is the key. The goal of a war is to win. Everyone knows war causes casualties. I just have to tuff through it if Im going to learn anything...