As for people; I can see that I will have to be around those that appreciate my worth! It is hard to find! But I have not looked all that hard!
Im attempting to act or expect middle classism from others! To force them to see who I really am! Force meaning, I expect them to respect me; they don't see me the way I see myself! And I have to let them go!
I am judged negatively all the time; very much like Im ugly, not good enough or a loser! Possibly the last one the most!
" He's an interesting guy" But they would never go out with me!
And Ive been around shallow people! Im nervous to move jump up the ladder to better people! People that value me! Im scared of such things; it brings its own trouble!
I feel truly alone on planet earth! Being abandon by everyone I can remember! They will pay in front of God! They will burn in hell!
Vortex or not; Universe of attraction! Sorry, there is still a hell! And they will be moving into it!
Im chasing after those who don't like me or respect me!
I want those who like themselves to like me! Maybe it will rub off on me and I wont have to do the work to get my life together!
It truly hurts when one is rejected for no reason! Simply because people see me as a loser!
I feel sorry for blind people who regain their site! Things will change for them!
The need for people must be destroyed! It will be! Needy" is what I mean!
I must learn to establish myself with the right people, and stop taking an interest in the wrong ones!
People who have no attraction to me; its hard! But they have a right to do so and I must move on!
And many of these jokers are con artists looking to take advantage of others!
And I suppose my naivety has been busted on!