I come from an unfortunate background! I come from a false place of being used! I was run down to nothing as a human being and played to death by sociopaths! so, here I am now! now what do I do!
I learned nothing but how to hide! I have anxiety blocks every 10 feet in any direction! and I can't cross them! They represent abandonment into hell and darkness and aloneness! I was destroyed as a child! most assuredly I would have died! should have died! but I didn't; here I am! now what!
I can't move in any direction; its complete rage and horror and pain; psychotically speaking!
I have interested! I can't finish anything!
I have been able to go to the weight room and work out and aerobic exercises! I ride a mountain bike! But everything else seems impossible!
My life is on hold!