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Things continue to change
   Sun Jul 21, 2019 10:53 pm
the strange world of getting better did
   Sun Jul 21, 2019 4:36 pm
This is not going to be easy.
   Sun Jul 21, 2019 10:47 am
Identity 101; so; it officinally begins; the rebuilding
   Sun Jul 21, 2019 2:25 am
Something positive is happening
   Sat Jul 20, 2019 11:54 pm
The Beatles
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A place exists
   Fri Jul 19, 2019 11:21 pm
Things are changing again
   Fri Jul 19, 2019 3:41 pm
Things are heating up; Im now backing down
   Fri Jul 19, 2019 9:06 am
I have CPTSD
   Wed Jul 17, 2019 4:47 pm
Real changes are occurring
   Tue Jul 16, 2019 10:46 am
Coming back into the present
   Tue Jul 16, 2019 2:32 am
Im extremely frustrated
   Mon Jul 15, 2019 11:14 pm
Fining myself or facing myself
   Mon Jul 15, 2019 8:39 pm
Im beginning to understand
   Sun Jul 14, 2019 3:30 pm
Visualizing
   Fri Jul 12, 2019 8:28 pm
Starting from the beginning
   Fri Jul 12, 2019 3:35 pm
The trap house part 2
   Fri Jul 12, 2019 3:13 pm
The trap house; I only knew about; In the end I win
   Fri Jul 12, 2019 1:15 am
Massive Mega paradigm shift
   Thu Jul 11, 2019 3:01 pm
First post recovery conversation
   Wed Jul 10, 2019 9:55 pm
Dating and Art
   Wed Jul 10, 2019 4:44 pm
movement
   Tue Jul 09, 2019 5:56 pm
childhood abandonment
   Mon Jul 08, 2019 3:23 pm
Being single
   Mon Jul 08, 2019 3:53 am
Preview: PTSD; High School
   Sat Jul 06, 2019 10:31 pm
Fear
   Sat Jul 06, 2019 4:34 pm
Ive found some answers
   Sat Jul 06, 2019 12:41 pm
D.I.D; let me introduce myself
   Sat Jul 06, 2019 12:23 pm
PTSD; dealing with triggers.
   Fri Jul 05, 2019 5:32 am
Making me into a loser; its all about the critical voice
   Thu Jul 04, 2019 6:08 pm
Molding sound like clay; having reasons; Things are changing
   Wed Jul 03, 2019 4:25 pm
critical voice
   Wed Jul 03, 2019 6:38 am
Toxic shame
   Tue Jul 02, 2019 11:05 pm
Ive found some answers
   Tue Jul 02, 2019 7:59 am

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A new segment of life

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Tue Jun 11, 2019 1:07 am

Im getting close; or closer; its working; the whole of the goal from many years ago; its kind of paying off a bit; Im in the right direction; many things are showing up; Im still a train wreck from the break downs; and as usual; the general normee-world does not understand at all; thats OK; Im surviving; Im slowly getting used to people again and interactions; its hard with CPTSD; its real real hard; scary; my nervous system does not want to go through what it went through in the past; it will protect me from damage; especially the war level damage that occurred from before; the stripping of my young life; torture; its that simple.
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My nervous system will not allow others to take my life as before.
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However, my not hiding in my room; Im out and about making things happen for me or making preparations happen for me to be around others in new social situations and its showing up around me.
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I write allot of stories about my new life; the one I claim in my writing is all ready here; and I thank the universe for that all the time. And Ill keep it up n up n up; until it shows up in front of me; the key is to believe. And to believe I must write stories; its called scripting; and I do allot of it; and visualization. more scripting these days.
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The key is to keep at it.
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The key is to keep going and going and going; more meditation, visualization and writing stories about my future as if I all ready have it; and keep it up; the idea is; write new stories about my life that dominate over the old ones; and their it is.
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My thoughts are thinking me; Im attempting to get my mind back in control where Im thinking my thoughts.
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Im still disturbed; but Im getting stronger in other areas; the areas where I had break downs are still affected; especially from CPTSD>
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More work ahead; Hm?.... Its like?...... Im digging trenches around an over flooding lake in order to keep the water in; create a wall around the lake; I know what to do; However, someone has to go out and do the digging. And its a tremendous around of work; digging those trenches is like writing those new stories of my life; thousands have to be made and created; maybe many more; it takes what it takes; might take 10,000 until Im finally pushed to move on it; change; it takes what it takes; sacrifices have to be made if I want change; I know what to do; just like the worker knows what to do when the water over flows; get out the shovel and start working.

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
Evolution didn't stop my death, God did .....Now what?
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