Lucy, Original?, 17

Since that odd experience with her, I've been able to talk some. Violetta is rather hesitant to communicate but I've been letting her know I'm here for her and willing to listen. She has spoken out loud on a couple of occasions and even smiled. I consider this huge progress.

I'd say another BIG step is last night when she was able to become co-conscious with me. We laid down and watched some cartoons and let her adjust to fully being in a physical body again. It was a very opening experience for me and hopefully her; I'm very proud of her.

Another thing that happened, which I struggle remembering as it was very late and was rather intense, I met another part I hadn't met yet, Riley. I couldn't really see them well at first. They were making fun and mocking me, and generally aggravating me, when another part who is a very kind, gentle protector, Natalie, came and asked them to leave me alone.

-TW Violence-

They started arguing when Riley actually slapped Natalie. We were all shocked. It becomes a big blur after that, but I think I may have attacked Riley? Or they attacked me, I'm not sure. We fought and it was pretty bad. It broke up and they ran away.

-TW over-

Afterward Natalie and I talked, I think she's doing okay, but probably still a bit shaken. Riley and I talked a couple of minutes ago, while I was writing this. They apologized, which is good. I have a pretty obvious feeling Riley struggles getting along with the others. We'll all figure something out. I'll have to talk with Harley, a tough kind of protector, about how to handle the situation. Honestly, I just want Riley to feel comfortable enough to be able to talk about what's up, y'know? If they can.

I also should mention Riley currently, at least, takes form of someone I met recently when I went inpatient. They act somewhat similar, although they are still definitely different. They share a couple of traits basically. Maybe they don't look exactly alike... I'm still not sure. I guess it's okay to not know sometimes.

-TW Eating disorder-

I have actually been eating without purging for the past 3 days, which rocks. I have a feeling I'll start relapsing back into the habits soon. I hope I can stay strong.

-TW Over-

My anxiety and everything has been pretty normal. Nothing else too out of the ordinary. I'll check back in tomorrow. I have an outing and I'm a bit nervous as to how the others will react, and if they do come out, how my friends might react, if they even notice.

Until tomorrow! <3