Michael - Original - 17

I don't know if they're avoiding me or not. I haven't heard from them since an incident to nights ago where I was pulled back, but I couldn't completely? Harley was taking charge it was like my thoughts became hers which happens a lot I guess. Is that even normal?

I haven't heard from them. It's like they've up and gone. I think they're still there, they have to be, but I can't talk to them. And they won't talk to me. Not even Lilly. Is this because of what happened? Is it because I'm a danger? Are they sick of my destructive behaviors so they've just left me alone? Are they like building the strength or planning how to fully switch or something? MAN I sound absolutely nuts but I'm worried as heck.

I'm just scared. I kept pushing back like Eli, I guess it was me doing that, too, not just them. Refusing help. Refusing to get better with my eating. Did they give up? I feel like not. Maybe they're talking somewhere and blocking me out. I'm scared.

Well I'll be back when the sun shifts. Which'll be honestly, I don't know.