Michael - 17? - Original

I saw my psychiatrist yesterday. I talked to her more about my alters. She asked me if I was maybe projecting the experiences on this website onto myself so I could fit in. Well, no, I've been in a terrible community like that before, never again. Ever. I also didn't join this site until everything started getting clearer and more intense, that was the whole reason, so I could get answers. I told her that. By the way I do not regret joining, the people on here are honest and lovely and it's helped so much.

She said people with DID will always remember their trauma. I told her I felt like there are things being held back from me, by other alters, to keep me safe and mentally well. I had trauma in my past I remember but it wasn't enough to cause this. She said she didn't want to label it and just wanted me to get help and work with my therapist on it. That's good, I think.

Is it even a thing to have repressed memories? I've read about it and a lot of professionals are skeptical, and I have a weird imagination and it's possible I could just be making it up. That's what I worry about. I know some people on here have experienced that, and I don't want to invalidate them, I'm just doubting myself.

Until next time, as Lucy says.

[quote="Snaga"]You're not the first person to be wondering what you could be disassociative over. I do it, too. I just try to keep an open mind. I've read it's very common to doubt yourself.[/quote]

Thanks for this. <3