Michael & Lucy/Eli (Eli's a nickname sorry) - 17 + 16 - Co-hosts

So It's been a bit. I'll catch up.

So Eli's doing a lot better. They've been able to show back up and help host again. Things have been better, really quiet, but better. I feel like a lot of people have some things to say right now so we'll probably be switching around, but things are mostly in control. I don't know if I've mentioned before, but Eli and I (Michael) are pretty blended since we've been co-hosting for so long. It can be hard to differentiate between us sometimes so if we sound confusing or I do or whatever I apologize.

So we recently brought up our trauma, that Eli and I have been mostly keeping under wraps and denial. We talked to our T and psych about it, finally opened up. It was hard but we did it! They both finally understand better. I also have been doing the rather not so wonderful thing and attempting to regain memories of bad times, solely because I feel like I want proof that it actually happened and I'm not just making things up. It might sound weird or ridiculous, but that's what I did.

It ended with bad dissociation and Riley showing up who then tried to bring it up again and then boom I had no idea who I was and contacted a crisis line. I learned someone who really likes birds and has a separate mother than our biological one came out? The crisis line dude was really really nice and understanding so shout out to my main man out there.

I'm gonna help Lilly try to write now.

Lilly - 5 - Memory/trauma holder?

Hi I'm Lilly. I am 5 years old and I like horses and puppies I would like cats but they scratch me a lot and don't like me well at least Jasper does. I've been real good and I want Christmas to come soon. I can type all by myself kinda well Micael is helping me a lot but I am good Harley is happy I love to see her smile. Well I'm gonna go play bye! Have a good day!

Harley - 25 - Protector/Caregiver

Hey I'm Harley if you can read. This person Mick here has a world of problems they refuse to talk about and they don't like me typing this but they're in looooooooove with this guy and it's worrying the heck out of them. Sorry I'm not allowed to swear apparently and I don't care if Mick is complaining about me writing this or not it needs to be said. Honestly I would kick this guy to the curb but they insist he's something special. Well now that this has been said I'm off to help Lilly so yeah see you.

Michael - 17 - Original/Co-host

So I guess that's how everyone's doing? Admittedly it does worry me I guess though I think Harley is being too harsh. Natalie doesn't want to type but she hopes you're all doing well.

Until the sun shifts?