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| Author: | LittleMie [ Thu Nov 17, 2016 9:45 am ] |
| Blog Subject: | Transition |
I am not sure what the proper word for this is but we feel like we have transitioned. The state of the world has changed. After months of feeling really fluid, uncertain, damaging stuff including ourselves, not sleeping, feeling like there has been nobody in charge etc etc things suddenly seem like they have fallen into place. The last week things have been different we have been overtired and very sleepy, we have been sleeping through the night and if we have had to get up it has felt almost as if we have been medicated although we haven't, we have not slept like this for years. We have been locked out of the internal world unable to see I think that lots of stuff has been going on internally whilst I have slept. Prior to this we had been considering a merger and unsure if this was a good thing or not. In practice I don't think 'I' have had any control over it, we have to grow and develop this can't be stopped by my fear. I have some concern that things are a little too settled. But that is me I do get anxious about this stuff. I think I have to know that it is ok to take a back seat as the constant worry and anxiety about things does not help. I have been grieving. I have been very down. This sadness will not just leave. I have had a lot of sadness in my life but we cannot let this hold us down. I have shared some of this sadness with other members of the system recently and it has been ok. We have a song at the moment that we all seem to like it is called Drawing Pins - it beautifully describes how things have been over the last few months in the system. We can see a light at the end of a tunnel. Drawing Pins (Nothing but Thieves) Every light is blinding Evey minute lasts all day Every thought is fighting They're not falling into place I'm held down by drawing pins They pierce the skin Lights are on but no one's in When you talk I don't feel like I belong Here at all Tell me what you did it What you did it What you did it for Cos I can't figure it out What you did it What you did it What you did it for Cos I can't figure it out I could use some Magick C'mon Crowley, let me in I'm held down by drawing pins They pierce the skin I try not to fall asleep When you talk I don't think like I belong Here at all Tell me what you did it What you did it What you did it for Cos I can't figure it out What you did it What you did it What you did it for Cos I can't figure it out What do I have to do To be loved, loved by you What do I have to do To be loved, loved by you What do I have to do To be loved, loved by you What do I have to do To be loved, loved by you Tell me what you did it What you did it What you did it for Cos I can't figure it out What you did it What you did it What you did it for Cos I can't figure it out What do I have to do To be loved, loved by you |
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