<![CDATA[Psychology and Mental Health Forum KitMcDaydream's Blog Feed]]> https://www.psychforums.com en <![CDATA[The Captive Child]]> https://www.psychforums.com/blog/KitMcDaydream/the_captive_child_b-13761_sid-4269eac3387aa94777df608b9a48ed46.html who no-one ever see's
there's rumours that they're feral
but no-one ever gets close,
cos they flee

but the woods are a place of magic
a place full of mysterious beings,
with an ability to be anything
your heart and mind is seeing.

The child imagines the Phoenix
to take them far and high
to watch the world round them
from a safe place in the sky.

Within the Phoenix wings
the child impossible to see,
escapes into a parallel universe
known as 'the real world'
to everyone .. except 'me'

For I am the captive child
and the Phoenix set me free
After years of imprisonment,
its finally safe, to just 'be me'.]]>
<![CDATA[The Perfect Child (The first split)]]> https://www.psychforums.com/blog/KitMcDaydream/the_perfect_child_%28the_first_split%29_b-13753_sid-4269eac3387aa94777df608b9a48ed46.html the sounds they hurt the ears
the desire to scream or run was abolished
'the self' completely frozen in fear

Hand flapping was forbidden
as was hands over ears
Rocking was now taboo
these things cannot 'become you'

For you are the Perfect Child
sitting quietly in class
listening to the teacher,
remembering to smile, remembering to speak
the challenge 'to be normal'
is the test you have to pass!]]>
<![CDATA[The Birth of the Phoenix]]> https://www.psychforums.com/blog/KitMcDaydream/the_birth_of_the_phoenix_b-13744_sid-4269eac3387aa94777df608b9a48ed46.html
There's a forest in the bottom. In the forest live small little white things. The rejected child doesn't know what to call them, they have no words, only senses.

one little white spot of light moves in front of the child, the light gets longer and arms and legs appear and a face..'Why are you here child?'..the words are voiceless and appear in the child's mind as if by magic

The rejected child doesn't speak, but thinks in their mind of an image they saw in a book. The body of light transforms to match the picture in the child's mind....the Phoenix is born!]]>
<![CDATA[The Secret Family at No 6]]> https://www.psychforums.com/blog/KitMcDaydream/the_secret_family_at_no_6_b-13731_sid-4269eac3387aa94777df608b9a48ed46.html

There's a secret family at No 6, did you know?

They hide in there afraid of window cleaners or unexpected visitors to the door. Who should answer? who should pretend to be whoever the other human is expecting to see.

The original occupant of this property left, but she was the only one entitled to it really, at least from a legal viewpoint. She carried the name on important papers that meant she was entitled to live here.

The Secret family don't share the same name, but they share the same body! There's your typical mother figure, a couple of wayward teenagers and a couple of younger kids there most days. The World see's one, one body, one legal name, one occupant. It expects it.

A letter or card comes from someone who knew the last host, they don't know the host left years ago, the 'personality' they knew isn't here anymore.

What do they do? Pretend it never arrived? send a brief text to say thanks and hope the other person don't ask too many questions they can't answer? Past experience tells them that once they reply there will be expectations..to be open to tell them what 'the host' been doing, their words indicate they expect the host's condition to be exactly the same as when they knew them. Expectation to say 'I am good thanks' and wait for the dreaded question 'so when can we meet?'

Innocent words but exhausting words, it's easy to just send a text as if its from the host but meeting..that requires the family (or at least one member) to physically 'be' the host, for several hours in person, that reality is expecting to see. It's physically exhausting.

But the family revealing themselves means so much disruption, hospital maybe at a time where there's a pandemic in the outside world with millions already dead from it. The body getting this virus means the end of the whole family, so they stay secret..glaring resentfully at the envelope that triggers so much anxiety and fear.

It can wait another day, the other person can't know whether the family's postman came today or tomorrow or the next day or ever with the card containing so many expectations!]]>