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Permanent Linkby Helpmediagnose on Thu May 31, 2018 11:27 pm

HELP ME, IF YOU HAVE EVER HEARD OF A DISORDER THAT MATCHES THE FOLLOWING, LET ME KNOW.

Since I was 13, (5 years ago) I have experienced a sleep disorder unlike anything I'd ever heard of. I've participated in sleep studies, seen countless doctors and therapists, but alas, no one seems to know what it is or how it works. Basically, I've had insomnia all my life, and like anyone would I experience sleep deprivation when I go too long without sleep. Symptoms of this for me was always a buzzing feeling in my head, uncomfortable thoughts, worsened anxiety and physical restlessness. However, when I was 13 it took a turn for the worst. I would eventually fall asleep after these long stretches of consciousness, and within the hour, id wake back up, completely helpless to my own brain. I would scream, rip my clothing off, bite myself or things around me, trying to snap myself out of something I had no control over. I was terrified of my family, and would say nightmarish things to them like "why would you hurt me?" Or "it's not you!" All while destroying the house and hurting myself. My mother brought me to sleep study after the 2nd occurrence a month later. Nothing was found. I was made to stay up, but I did not experience what we refered to as a "terror snap" due to Its horrifying suddeness. I saw countless therapists, they became less frequent, happened more frequently on days where I was inordinately stressed or upset or had a fever. I tried a million different pills, nothing helped.

The way I can best describe how it feels from the inside is like, you know that desperate fear and pain one might feel if they were set on fire and unable to put themselves out? That's how it feels, that same fear and helplessness. I'm unable to process my thoughts at a normal rate, and feel as though the part of my brain that distinguishes reality from fantasy is still asleep, while the rest of me is awake.

IF YOU HAVE ANY IDEAS WHAT I MAY BE SUFFERING FROM, PLEASE DO NOT HESITATE TO MAKE A SUGGESTION. I HAVE SUFFERED LONG ENOUGH, I WANT ANSWERS.

thank you.

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