Dear D,
When I was in church the other day you came to sit in the pew behind me and in the course of our conversation prior to the service starting for some reason you thought it was appropriate to call me fat. You cant have known what an impact saying this to me would have but surely you should realise that that is not the kind of thing you say to someone you are talking to casually in church. It is a really rude way to behave and you should know better. Particularly given you work in a caring profession and you are meant to be a good communicator as part of your job. If you behave like this at work I pity those you work with - both clients and colleagues.
You didnt know this would happen but saying what you did to me has retriggered the eating disorder I have been struggling with since I was 14. I know it is ultimately me who decides whether to go down this route or not but what you said was very unkind and has started off some unhealthy thinking and behaviour. You were not to know but you should engage your brain before you open your gob.
A big bit of me now wants to get as thin as possible in order to show you just how thin I can be and this is really unhealthy. But thanks to you it is a thought I cant get out of my head. I now also feel even more fat and ugly than I do usually - which is saying something.
This is the second time you have said something cruel to me. I dont know if you are just a really insecure person who feels the need to be horrible to other people, or whether there is something else going on. I would say tho that it might be worth you looking at your own faults before putting down other people. I doubt I am the only person in church you have behaved like this with and you might want to remember what Jesus said about loving your neighbour.
I am working hard to not let you get to me but I am struggling with this. You really hurt my feelings and have messed with my head. I would say that I hope to do the same to you some day but I am worth more than stooping to your level.
I am hoping I no longer have contact with you unless I absolutely have to. And I would appreciate it if you would go back to sitting in your usual place and not invading my space. Church is meant to be a therapeutic and spiritual place for me and your behaviour is spoiling it. Take your comments elsewhere please.
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