The country and probably a lot of other countries too were shocked at the violent murder of Lee Rigby. One thing that worries me is the reaction to this from other extremist groups. We have enough problems between different groups of ppl in this country without adding fuel to the fire. Something that made me cheer up a little tho about it all was reading in the news about how mosques were opening up dialogue by serving tea and biscuits to people who would likely never interact with them - such as EDL protesters. Apparently this behaviour has had some success thankfully. It is good to know that not all people are too quick to react adversely. Clearly those men who committed the murder were not representing Islam.

This situation reminds me of when we got attacked in Nigeria. Those who attacked us said they were doing it in the name of Islam and Allah but they clearly were not. Those who were acting in a spiritual manner were the villagers who called them off, thus saving our lives - who were Muslims.

I really hope that the day will come soon where people stop doing awful deeds in God's name.

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How is it fair that someone I was at Med School with who seriously assaulted someone whilst drunk was only given a 12 month GMC suspension and community service plus fines whereas because I have mental health issues in the end I was effectively forced off the register? The GMC are hugely bigoted when it comes to MH issues and believe everyone with the slightest mental illness is the next Harold Shipman - you will never stop a Harold Shipman. Whilst I was still on the register I was told I was not allowed to speak about any of this but now one of the few bonuses I have is that I can say what I want about them - it's called freedom of speech and it is a human right. Not that the GMC know anything about preserving human rights. They would not treat ppl so unfairly if they did. So it appears the GMC is happy to allow thugs who cause coma in someone to continue to practise but woe betide if you are ill - then you really are in trouble. Cant have ppl letting down the side and of course everyone withb mental illness is a serial killer too.



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The ConDem government here are doing their level best to ensure that the poorest in society are getting shafted as much as possible. Benefits have been totally overhauled. People who do the "good thing" and go to work as phrased by the chancellor will be better off and those who do the "bad thing" and dont go to work will be punished. It is not that simple. I would love to be working full time but I simply cannot do it at the moment. Others are in the same boat. Telling us we are doing the "bad thing" is not condusive to people getting well. To make matters worse there are now links being made between being on benefits and killing 6 of your children. For those who are not aware a man has been given life today for killing his kids. The fact he was on welfare has caused the ConDems to start saying that the culture of people on benefits needs to be looked at. Naturally all of us who are, are killers waiting for an opportune victim to murder. We are also lazy. I paid high rate tax for years to pay into the system which is now supporting me and once I am able to I will be paying into it again to support others and that is what it is there for. Being on benefits is degrading and difficult and people on the whole do not want to be on them and would far rather be able to work. I dont see why we should be getting punished for the sins of the few.

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I had a training day yesterday for a new job. This is the first work I have done since I went of sick 5 years ago after a suicide attempt. I honestly never thought I would get to this point, and I think my team also felt the same. I am so pleased to have proved us all wrong. It was a very difficult training day and I really had to exercise my brain and also people skills but I got through it. It is only occasional work but it is a really good place to start. Plus it is wonderful to be in a position to give back to ppl rather than always taking. It is working in a team of 3 assessing services provided by a large MH charity and feeding this back. It certainly seems quite hardcore but I think I am going to really enjoy it. And I am so so so pleased to be getting back at work. I know it is not a full time job working as an anaesthetist but in a way I feel the achievement of getting here is more so that when I was working as a Dr. I dont know what the future is going to bring but this is a really good start.

Huge hugs

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Today is 16 years since my dear Grandpa died and tomorrow is 25 years since my wonderful Dad died. It is a sad time of year for me as I loved them both and miss them a lot. however I was reflecting today on how I am able to think more about them in happy times than I used to. I used to always think about them dead and also have pain at the fact they are no longer here. I saw my Dad after he died and that experience was always at the forefront of my brain. It still is around but is not the only thing I think about. I also remember the happy times with Grandpa and not just the time when I was told he had died. I think with time these things get better. I am going through grief of sorts atm for a couple of reasons and these two days are serving to remind me that there is hope and that things will get better even if they are really bad atm.

Huge hugs to you all

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