Sorry - I am being a bad blogger atm. Things have not been great as I know some of you know and I have been struggling a little bit.
I cut the other day - things had been building up and something happened to tip me over the edge. I have managed not to cut since tho which is good tho I am struggling to throw the blades away
I feel really bad for cutting but my therapist pointed out that I have not thrown everything away. She likens the good we have achieved in our relationship to sugar in tea. You cannot take sugar out of tea and what I have learnt in therapy cannot be unlearnt. It sounds wise - I hope she is right.Doing loads of music still tho really should be practising for the gig more than I am atm. I have a lot of work to do and I am struggling to motivate myself to do it.
I do wonder if my mood is dipping after a while being a little on the high side - my motivation is less, I am sleeping loads and the cutting is something which I should not really be ignoring even tho that seems like what I want to do about it.
Anyhow huge hugs to you all - I hope you are well
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