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by **Cate68** on Thu Nov 14, 2013 5:28 pm

I'll take the ######6 rhisperdol tonight with the other meds.

I'll have to wean myself off of Peter Woodward. Its' not healthy and it isn't helping anything. He is a beautiful man and he can do a lot of cool things and he teaches a lot of great things but I'm getting sicker and sicker and I don't have a reprieve and I need something more.

God might be nice, if I could get a handle on God. God eludes me.

Spanish is an okay diversion but I need other diversions.

Of course, having plenty to eat would help. 30 more minutes.

by **Cate68** on Thu Nov 14, 2013 5:19 pm

I will clean the house.

I will fix supper.

I will take a huge amount of pills.

I will go to bed at 8:30 or earlier -Sue or Liz or Gladys be damned.

by **Cate68** on Thu Nov 14, 2013 5:14 pm

I should die. I want to to die.

I know that I should die.

I can't live like this.

I don't want to work anymore.

by **Cate68** on Thu Nov 14, 2013 5:11 pm

The operatic stuff I play only soothes temporarily.

I need to be home in bed.

I am super super sick.

I am scared.

I don't want to be here.

I have thirty more minutes in hell.

My stomach churns and is in knots.

I hate my goddamn job.

by **Cate68** on Thu Nov 14, 2013 4:58 pm

Resting.

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++

This evening.

Die

The opera doesn't do anything.

I'm putting my head down and resting.

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