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|Author:||Barney [ Wed Jan 04, 2012 11:51 am ]|
|Blog Subject:||Addicted Gambler...|
Hi all... I'm Barney,
I've just hit a point in my life where I was fed up with me. I hated who I had become and don't know how I let myself get to this point... I'm severely addicted to gambling and it's destroying my life very rapidly. I just discovered that I have spent roughly $131 000 on gambling in the last year. I have hidden it from everyone I love and especially from my loving wife. She is the world to me and I nearly lost her because of my depression and stress brought on by my gambling. I was never 'awake' in everyday life. I was always day dreaming of strategies to gamble more efficiently and how to cash out and not let the casino take it all. I realized that I had a problem when I would always play till I was broke. It didn't matter how much money I was up, I never cashed out... I was so self-destructive! I never came to the conclusion until I started online gambling. I took advantage of the hand history and reviewed pretty much everything I could. There were times when I would have multiplied my buys in's up to staggering amount like fifty times. Still I would find a way to bet more and more till it was gone...
I have ruined the last ten years of my life directly to gambling. I need to get myself on a positive track and fight through this. I know I have the understanding and knowledge to get myself through this addiction, it’s just the support I know I need... I'm in a circumstance where I can't expose my gambling addiction because of the career choice I have made... It's a very difficult scenario to understand so I have come to psychforms to find the support I need...
I will get through this and will help everyone I can along the way...
I hope the best for us all!
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