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sacrifice the now: actively working forward

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Fri Nov 09, 2012 8:44 am

I will not see her again...

The PTSD Dissociative condition still effects me to the point of non response...

Its not the end of the world

I believe this girl liked me, I liked her.

I have to trust God, keep working with him. God is my higher power, not women or anything else on planet earth.....

I have to sacrifice; I cant respond, even if she likes me. To much control coming from the enemy camp. I cannot trust people.

Im working on this problem. I recognize I have a problem... However, I will not be able to save this passing possible relationship. I will have to wait for the next one... I find this last phrase horrible yet probable.

I love those that love me: I do not want to hurt them... I have to let this go, stay away from her and the arenas she visits... its not all about her.... Its about me...

I feel disappointed and sad..

She is in control of to many things.. Its all to much for me: her life. I live in my mind in the abstract, Im not used to so much interaction... Im sorry if I hurt her... may God take care of her and may she forgive me.... I would have been her friend if I could have found a way to trust again...

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Evolution didn't stop my death, God did .....Now what?
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