I've always had to take care of myself. No one ever told me to seek help. Or that I shouldn't be cutting. They never cared enough to. My parents just let it happen. They knew for years and never once stopped me. It wasn't until i was 17 and wanting to kill myself that I sought help myself. I just wanted someone to tell me that I mattered. But I didn't.

That always gets me, I cut for years. They knew about it! They never tried to stop me. Why??? Why would you let your child cut? Why wouldn't you care enough to try and stop her, even if you failed at trying?? But to just let it continue!!!

Even today, I have to take care of myself. No one cares if my mood is swinging or I feel like cutting. I'm an adult. I've got to take care of myself. I just wish that someone cared enough to notice. I honestly wish someone had noticed when I was young. Back when it wasn't my job to take care of myself.