I'm a male who has had masochistic fantasies since an early age (12 or so) and has shoe/sock fetishes plus giantess/crush.
Growing up I was not popular and was picked on a lot from middle school onward. I believe I turned the abuse into a form of pleasure to cope with it, not sure where the shoe/sock fetish came from.
I masturbated frequently, 3-6 times/day sometimes. I can ejaculate without issue when I masturbate, but it does take me a good 20 minutes or so. When I masturbate I ball up a soft blanket so it's thick and then rub the bottom of my penis against it while I fantasize about women beating, maiming and even killing me.
I've had four sexual partners in my life, but I've never been able to reach climax (regardless of whether I was on top or bottom, if there was S&M style foreplay prior to or during sex)
I'm ok with this, it doesn't bother me. My wife and I don't want to have kids so it means I can go for quite awhile and she gets her orgasms and is happy.
I was just curious as to how common or uncommon something like this might be? Obviously it's psychological, so not looking for a diagnosis or "help", just wondering if this is something others here have heard of, experienced themselves, etc.