by Beyond Repute » Sat Aug 22, 2015 12:25 pm
What many paple think of as alpha is not alpha. It is driven by a need to constantly prove oneself regardless of the circumstances, which is insecurity. I have dealt with guys who thought they were going to overwhelm me with their domineering self-assertion, but not often because I am that thing and people know better. I'm also a psychopath. I don't play fair and violence comes easy to me. Let's say the last person who acted like he'd back me down by getting into me just because I was having fun and not paying attention to his efforts to get attention by being obnoxious and challenging got left unconscious in a pool of blood. I thought he might be dead so I slipped away calm and quiet. I wasn't angry as much as I was bored and impatient.
I took a common test used by psychologists and I was more dominant than 98% of people. It measured how willing you are to stand up for yourself in social situations, how willing you are to speak your mind, how you respond to others trying to get you to go with their choice when you want something different and you're not wrong, if you're willing to take charge and lead when appropriate or you just let someone else take over, your amount of competitiveness, and things like that. I was very high on all and that is how I see myself and how others see me. If anything, it's all a little much I hear. There's my way and the wrong way, I don't fail, I have momentary setbacks caused by sheer chance. I am so competitive, my sheer strength of will gets me positive outcomes. I am not intimidated by anyone and nobody can control me. At the same time, I don't need to show others I'm unfazed by them. There's no need. That is beta masquerading as alpha and I don't even have to suppress it. Interestingly I intimidate other men with my confidence and dominant social behavior with 0 effort. I don't notice it's happening because it is just how I am but women notice, comment, and approve.
Sex is beside the point. I could have sex with car mufflers and still I'd be just as dominant.
Sexually, I am 80% dominant/sadistic, 17% submissive, 3% vanilla. My primary sexuality is about control, psychological torture, strangulation, and pain. My secondary sexuality includes no interest in pain, I am very difficult to bother psychologically and it's not a turn on, strangulation is a turn off except during climax but I don't associate it with being submissive. It won't get me stressed either. I'll just stare until I pass out or it stops with no emotional response that can be seen or I can feel. Bondage is pointless. If I'm playing that role, I will not resist anything. I have limits and won't cross them but as far as humiliation goes, I have no shame. The girl acting dominant needs to realize that or I will grow bored. The more degrading and arrogant she is, the more fun it will be.
In reality, I am the same person when I am acting sub. It's all just for fun even if a session goes on for hours. Whatever the case may be, it won't change how I interact with her. I haven't found any chicks who were good at dominating in a long time. Sexual dominance is what I fantasize about the most and I have more stuff I like, but with the right girl the other is almost as fun. It's been years but the last switch who was good enough I let her do it 30-35% of our sex lives would do what I said outside of that situation even if I just spent 90 minutes being a total sub.
Another sense I'm more sexually dominant is I can do total power exchange and love it. I could never do that as a sub. I am the farthest thing from a slave. I don't top from the bottom and will eagerly humiliate myself on command, but its for my enjoyment. If I'm not enjoying it, it's no good. Doing something that is outside my tastes like hurting me For real is a bad idea. Thinking I am a paper tiger who can be dominated throughout life is a terrible idea. To me, being dominant sexually is easy whenever I am horny and social dominance is so natural it's like breathing. Being submissive is more dependent upon fleeting urges and I must have a perfect partner.
Few girls can be dominant with me. It's a common enough fantasy but first they're afraid they'll irritate me with minor stuff that is nowhere near mean enough to guarantee I stay awake. They seem unsure if themselves which I never do and it ruins the fantasy. When I tell them what to do, I don't wonder if they will. I know and that is in my voice. With most girls, it's like they're asking and hoping I'll comply. If I do, I will be going through the motions. Doing this forces me to do a radical switch mid session and dominate.
This is a loooooooong message but I'm coming to my main point. I think social dominance is needed to an extent to be effectively sexually dominant. Like I said I am a diagnosed psychopath with high self esteem, no negative thoughts about myself, don't care if others judge unless I want something because they're lower lifeforms, things that are shameful or debasing make me laugh. A girl doesn't need to be that. Girls like me aren't like me. They're the lite version. I get along great with women and this isn't meant to start a gender war, but not one woman I ever met can stand up to me when I assert supremacy. I am not speaking of violence but the domineering, unyielding form of dominance tho violence is only partially relevant since I know I could use it effectively against anyone no matter their size. But she needs to have some confidence in her sexuality and understand what's going on. She also needs to have fun. It's their chance to do something completely different so how can it not be fun?
I am a "player" and always cycling through women. That's not a complaint. I have enjoyed my sex life immensely but it would be nice to meet a hot girl who likes to switch and knows how. It is a little funny to me that girls who switch often have a sub/slave and act out their other side with someone else. I think it's because men are less into switching than women but I am a definite exception.
By the way I am attracted to socially dominant women independent of sex. Confidence, happiness, not being shy are all good. I have heard it said that some guys feel intimidated somehow but that's not me. I can hold my own. Sad, shy, friendless, down on herself = prey. I realize someone may take offense to that but that's how it is to me.
I have become death, the destroyer of worlds