i dont know how to act

ok i dont know if i have aspergers iv always suspected i might have anyways the problem iv been having is with socializing. for example, i would keep a journal and just jot down things iv learned in life. and i learned that your thoughts/mind controls your actions/behavior so im watching my thoughts (because iv been dealing with depression and i dont want a negative thought to influence a negative action and i also thought my brother was an alien because iv been smoking marijuana and prob got schizophrenia and i did something stupid and went to jail) and i feel like i dont know how to socialize because im always spending time in my head. and i feel like this journal is holding me back from being normal because most people dont keep a journal/diary. i feel like it just messes with my head.

I can relate to having a bizarre delusion, as I have Schizophrenia, but I have never done any kind of recreational drugs. I also feel like whenever I am in a public/social environment I do not know how to act. I get stressed out. I am on medication, thankfully, which greatly reduces my schizophrenic symptoms to the point of controlling them so well at times it feels like my symptoms are nonexistent. I know this post is late, but I hope you are doing well.

I am quite paranoid at times, but i think i know how to act, in fact i get along fine with people, on a superficial level. Anything more than that though...