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Two personas: one NT, one aspie

Postby pamelaperejil » Sat Jul 21, 2018 10:49 pm

Do you ever feel like you have two personas and one of them is aspie and one is normal? Like there's a percentage of you that's autistic and the rest not? A child and an adult? A Dr. Jekyll and a Mr. Hyde? Two personas that are so different that they cannot be completely integrated? And yet they are not completely distinct either, as they would be with DID? And sometimes the one holds sway and sometimes the other? Are you always aspie? Or only sometimes?

My dad was aspie and my mom was bipolar. I'm guessing this-mess-which-is-me is the end result of such a partnership. A yin and yang sort of thing in that the two personas are not separate and distinct from one another, but rather each contains the other.
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Re: Two personas: one NT, one aspie

Postby iabsurdlyexist » Sun Jul 22, 2018 12:06 am

I can't help your case since I struggle with the same thing. Not sure if I'd limit it to two but I'd say two are the strongest. There is a good chance they all just fall into a spectrum of moods consisting of my mood disorders.
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Re: Two personas: one NT, one aspie

Postby shock_the_monkey » Sun Jul 22, 2018 1:24 am

i can be many things if i try hard enough. but under stress i'm all AS.
something knocked me out' the trees
now i'm on my knees
... don't you know you're gonna shock the monkey

there is one thing you must be sure of
i can't take any more
... don't you know you're gonna shock the monkey

don't like it but i guess i'm learning

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Re: Two personas: one NT, one aspie

Postby Sjord » Sun Jul 22, 2018 6:50 am

I always have my asperger traits, I have no idea how to behave NT. Although I have learnt how to small talk in recent years so it's not obvious to strangers who I have short interactions with.
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Re: Two personas: one NT, one aspie

Postby pamelaperejil » Sun Jul 22, 2018 7:05 am

Sjord wrote:I always have my asperger traits, I have no idea how to behave NT. Although I have learnt how to small talk in recent years so it's not obvious to strangers who I have short interactions with.


You must find it's worth it to make the effort. I must say, I usually don't bother. I'm far too selfish.
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Re: Two personas: one NT, one aspie

Postby iabsurdlyexist » Sun Jul 22, 2018 11:00 am

shock_the_monkey wrote:i can be many things if i try hard enough. but under stress i'm all AS.


This is why I mention the moods make me seem different when I'm not really different. My baseline thought process always seems to be the same. It's the same reason I don't think I have dissociative identities. My framework is the same, it's just that my manipulation of that framework differs. I'm not doing an explanation any justice, LOL.
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