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fukin epiphany - i want to matter.

Postby saucygirl31 » Wed Sep 04, 2019 6:36 am

check it out.

tonight i thought about my relationships, what my ex's were most hurt by, what I was hurt by, why they got mad at me, why I got mad at them, etc.

it all came down to this question: why do i fuk w people who i never really liked from the start, and treated bad? I mean yeah, I liked them eventually. but here's the kicker: WHY?

because I like the attention.

now, why do I like attention? because when I don't have it, I function perfectly fine. in fact often times I am very quiet etc.

because I want to matter.

I want to INFLUENCE people.

I hear person (the member on psychforums) say that everyone ultimately wants to "matter".

that's all thanks for listening even if ur black.
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Postby xdude » Wed Sep 04, 2019 6:45 am

######6 great post, epiphanies are rare, awesome.
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Postby saucygirl31 » Wed Sep 04, 2019 6:48 am

thanks man but honestly props to justonemoreperson for saying ppl want to matter that's where I got it from I almost just PMed him but figured I'd share in case others can relate.
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Postby xdude » Wed Sep 04, 2019 6:50 am

a very cool post, honest, appreciate it and I can relate as others do.
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Postby solemnlysworn » Wed Sep 04, 2019 6:50 am

We all want to affect change and influence in our spheres of interest. Why do you think you opt for that particular arena to do it in?
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Postby Influenza » Wed Sep 04, 2019 6:52 am

If you want to 'matter' as cannon fodder, be my guest.
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Postby xdude » Wed Sep 04, 2019 6:52 am

p.s. JOPs posts are very honest, to a fault, but I do enjoy reading his posts too.
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Postby saucygirl31 » Wed Sep 04, 2019 6:54 am

solemn - hmm..

i want to matter everywhere really, it's just initialized from me thinking about ex's. now why was I thinking about ex's? because I'm lonely prob. like it's 3am.
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Postby xdude » Wed Sep 04, 2019 7:01 am

saucygirl31 wrote:because I want to matter.


because I wanted to matter too and not just be an after thought, cluster b because I didn't matter except for what I did for others.
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Postby saucygirl31 » Wed Sep 04, 2019 7:02 am

who said u don't matter and why do u believe them.

-- Wed Sep 04, 2019 8:06 am --

this reminds me of the song 3am by matchbox 20.
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